What the fuck!

Why the fuck couldn’t I just fucken die when I was eight?

Was it my parents selfishness that kept me alive?

Was it the down right impudence of me wanting to live past my expiration date?

Or, does God really have an awesome ass plan for me?

???????????????

I suppose the all mighty does.

Cuz I should be 6 feet deep, all da bullshit that i've done.

Now taking things with a grain of sand,

I’m not sure, but I think I understand.

The simple things in life, like..

The birds and the bees,

The sun and the moon,

The stops and goes,

Needs and wants,

And the desire to reach unimaginably higher.

My perceptions of life very,

Day by day,

Time and time again,

What the fuck/let me know//why am I here?/throw a bone/let me know what I can call home//my peace of tranquility//my bean bag sofa//relaxed atmosphere//no drugs/or inebriated states//I remembering when I was high on life//but mabe/I just came to L8//I wish life was a choise/not having to listen to anothers voice//there hourse/there bland/honestly///I would rather eat sand//but personal vandeta/leads to self damnation//helping out others/leads to self incrimination//finding shit within myself//I wanted to keep locked away/hidden from existace/even myself//how the fuck did I do this/that way///make my mind/and body forget//turning to ice/like I do so freaquently/at a mother fucken whim/////AWWWWWWWW//FUCK!//what is the purpose/let me know/spell that shit out//but the words of life are simple/???????/not to be understood/but leading out into a ripple//at the banks of the pond/I'll still remain lost/where the current takes me//is do to my stroke//compleatness/being/existance//all I want to do is escape//and take one with//if I do it myself//God and I both know/what will happen again. 

!The enemy is us!//people in general/don’t give a fuck!//shit is presented for a reason/most of the time it comes in the seasons//But blood from the heart//there is no reason///reason to care/be left in despair/or shed a tear/or two/for an unfortunate family //”god helps those who help themselves”//well///that’s what the world is//I get mine/fuck it, if you get yours//JUST/AS LONG//AS one party is inclined///FUcK FREE TRADE/DEMOCRACY BLOWS//CUZ IN THE END//WE ALL LOOK LIKE SOME DUMB ASS HOEZ///NO PUN intended/I’m just stating facts//people need to chill//and take a cold one back//if we all did that/we’d still be on a power attack//someone’s lust for power//some chicks greed for seed//we all need to realize there is no need///LOVE hurts//AND IT’s PAINS thirst//so if peace exist//it’s in the mind/and of the soul///SO EVERYONE!//TAKE A DEEP breath//low and behold//the truth has been told.

P.S. FIND THE HIDDEN MEANING.